Coming back

Every time I sit down to write this post I cant seem to do it. I have a hard time with sharing my trials. Others make there blogs look so positive and happy go lucky, that I feel embarrassed to post about my life. But that Is why I guess my blog is called Life as is. This is my life as it is. Life isn't always what I have expected it to be. But I am learning it is only what I decide it to be.

We moved to Utah six months ago. We moved here for several reasons. We had just foreclosed on our home in march, which hasn't been an easy hardship. I hated the fact that we had to move out of our home on someone else's terms other then my own. I have learned many valuable lessons from that home. I still have many dreams that I live there. I actually have had my house key on my key chain the last six months, not having the heart to take it off. Silly really, but I have taken it hard the we foreclosed. I have missed that home tremendously.

We have been extremely fortunate to have family that has helped us these past six months. That is another hardship, having had to learn to accept help when we really do need it. I know that I will never really be able to repay family for the help which they have rendered, for it goes beyond material things. Needless to say, I love my family.

We really moved here because there were a couple of important lessons that we need to learn. I really dont want to go in to much detail, but I feel that I myself am leaving Utah a better person. We have made the decision to move back to arizona. It kinda feels like we are playing a game of musical chairs! I am excited to be coming back. Arizona is home to me. I just wish it wasn't so hot!!

One deciding factor for us to move back has been my job. I have done hair for nine years. I never knew that the decision I made in my youth to go to beauty school my senior year would have such an impact on my future. But I am going back to work and am so excited to do hair again. I have made many good friends from my cliental, it has been such a big part of who I am.

I am excited to be coming back at the begging of September.

We have had to make so many changes in our life this past year that moving back will not be the same. Change is good, not easy, but good. I don't always want to be the same person. I am grateful for the changes that we have made in our lives. Changes which we would not have made if we weren't forced to. So the trials that I have had I know that I should be grateful for them. They have helped make me who I am.

So get ready Arizona here we come (back)!!